Taking Control

After the last few years of doctors, medicines, tests, sickness, and hospitals I am deciding to stop letting this illness control me. It took my energy, happiness, friends, and hobbies. I am not going to let it take anything else. I am going to beat this illness. This illness is going to lose... I really like to win! (Thank you Grandma for my competitive spirit). The doctors want me to exercise so that is exactly what I am going to do. I am stopping the continuous resting by going on walks. This started last Monday. I went on a walk for 11 minutes and got a .7 miles. Tuesday I walked for 15 minutes and reached a mile. Wednesday I decided to walk faster, I did a mile in 13 minutes. Thursday I did the mile in 12 minutes and 50 seconds. Friday I went on my adventure with my sister which consisted of a lot of walking. Saturday I wanted to walk longer... so I did... for 25 minutes and reached 1.7 miles. Today I went to the USS Iowa with my brother, it was so much fun and was quite a bit of walking with stairs. Each day I have been taking a picture while I do my walking adventure. Here are the ones I have taken so far...

The Courage to Let Go

Yesterday I was supposed to get a heart monitor put on for the next month but didn't due to them not having the equipment! We went there and everything... it was all quite frustrating. What made it all worse though is not feeling well at all. I was super sleeping, my muscles hurt, my vision was going blurry, and my chest was feeling funny. Then I read this quote:

I read it and thought that there is nothing I can do besides let go of all the frustration. So I did. After doing so, I felt stronger. Maybe not physically but mentally. I know that I can't change what is going on with me. I also know that God wouldn't give me anything I can't handle. Now, I am going to try my best to have courage getting through this journey and trust the Lord.